Dear Nelly,
You see,over the years I haven't always made the best choices in my prison assaults for some of the people I chose to stab were heavy hitters.The problem with that is that I really didn't have other choices for I only needed to think of if I didn't stem the problem(s) then?They may very well have escalated into abuse that was far greater.
I am only sorry for what I did in the sense that I have been denied parole many times behind this behavior.Do I enjoy the fact that I must do what I now do challenging the state to transfer me to another prison?NO matter what stance they now take-I will win this battle for I'm already winning.How you may ask?I'm in the facility hospital which is a safe environment.Sure,I may not have ALL the luxuries that I'd have in general population,but that is where materialistic values come in.I've never been a person who is tempted by materialistic items and I could live comfortably with the basics.Here I have a bed,sink,tiolet,a shower(in my room)and reading/writing materials!That is it,but I'm content for I get my mail,write letters,and I read.Three of my favorite things.
I'm told that this is a danger to my health by not eating or drinking.If you read my letters all this time I'm content with a painless death.When you have lived in a subculture of savagery for all these years the other side may not be all that bad!That is a true statement even though I don't believe the state will allow me to die.
It's a matter of who has a stronger will?Me vs. the State of New York.I will win for they hurt when you hit their pockets and you could believe I'm hitting them.Soon they will realize that all of this will stop with a transfer and they will transfer me.If that doesn't occur then I will go on living as I have since 7-10-12 which isn't all that bad for I know I'm safe from my enemies.I told them as much for you can believe I've had the top officials come interview me.Their latest ploy is the threats of having a tube teathered to the lining of my stomach?My response,"Don't talk about it,lets do it for I haven't gone this far to back ouy now!"Many may not agree with what I choose,but they also do not walk in my shoes.
I know that surgery will be done in an outside hospital which is another zone of comfort.Soon it'll be realized that I'm along for the ride and since there are 15 maximum security prisons,send me to one of those.
I'm still amazed with the quality of your photographs and I really can't wait to see some fall & winter pictures.
Listen,I know the state doesn't like when an inmate tries to dictate or is trying to manipulate the situation,but I really don't care what the Dept. of Corrections likes.I know the state doesn't like spending money either,but I've gotten many officers overtime for each time I am force fed for they must have 4 officers and a sergeant present for those 2 hours.Each officer makes apprrximately $50.00 an hour so it adds up.As I said and I've told them as much,I don't care what they like for I'm dug in and I won't waver in my stance.but that is what has stopped me from striking out and causing mayhem.
I just finished a classic called The Thorn Birds-they had made a T.V. mini series behind it,but the book was great.Did you ever read it?What type of books do you like to read?At one time,I was picky,but I'll read just about anything now.
I await ANY questions you may have and until then,take very good care.
James
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